Aguuuhhh!!! ! I hate this!!!
First off I hate research papers! That is all I have been doing this spring semester, is researching for this class and another class that I’m taking. One would think that after the first couple of papers that some things would fall right into place. This has not happen and I am beginning to wonder if it ever will.
I am stuck! My mind can not go any further! I have an idea but putting all the information together is difficult and it becomes confusing. I am hoping it all just makes sense. My best bet is to just write it out then go through it all once again. This is how I will spend all day tomorrow putting my thoughts into some form of psycho babble another weekend gone to hitting the books. I hate it! Because I need to be spending my time with math since I have such a difficult time with that. What makes if difficult about this online class is I just have this belief that I am doing it all wrong. What is this a revelation? Yes! I can say it I am afraid to fail. If I fail at least I tried right? Wrong because I will have to take it again so then I have wasted these weeks..
It has become difficult because I spend my time looking for research material that has some substance. By this I mean that has logic, not boring and worth considering. I just think that Professors and teachers have seen it all; it must get redundant after a while, right? So, my desk is piled high in research material and of books that must be read. I have been slowly been reading, reading and reading all week long. In the wee hours of the night between bedtime stories and putting children to sleep after a long day of work and school, I am exhausted by ends day. I am sure we all our right?
Here we are week 14, what should have been easily thrown together, a few words “blah, blah, blah” and all is said and done. If I was a person that did things have half ass then it would be alright. Then I could justify loading my papers up with quotes from Dr. and so forth. Yet because I am not I am still reading and writing papers. It is Friday night no time for date night or hanging out, a quick bite and off to work I go to work the night shift. Tomorrow will come and finally a few hours to finish reading and drafting my papers. I am almost out of copy paper and my ink is low, I will be exhilarated once this term is done!
After the first couple of papers you develop a knack for evaluating certain data, concepts and consider other arguments to base your own argument off of. Unfortunately for me I have drowned myself in a stack of articles and such. They sit not more than a foot and half from me, a constant reminder of how much more reading I will need to do before the night is done. Well time to go finish my shift at work.
This research paper is really bothersome is it not? To be honest, if this assignment was not worth a significant amount of the grade I would not do it for two reasons: the first is the page minimum, 6 pages, I am lucky if I get even 3 to 4 pages, but 6? The world may as well end. The second is the topic or novel we are researching, I do not care for books in general, but when assigned to research a book you do not like or care for, it makes doing this assignment that much harder.
ReplyDeleteI mean we have lives too, you know? To me this assignment is like saying, "throw your lives away and write me, or you fail this class" putting that psychological weight upon our conscious. If only it were one or two pages less, I would not have that much of an issue for this assignment, but being wishy-washy will not change anything unfortunately. To be honest, I actually wonder if any of these will be worth the effort in the end, because if it is not, I will not be happy and will more than likely regret taking this online class.